So they say

listen to your heart before you bid him goodbye.

.

Tied up in sorrow, lost in my soul.

Just another facade


"Can call them book place for you alrd, BB ITE." Ben, you win alrd!
It's okay. MDIS. I call this early planning.
If not for the comforting hugs, how the fuck would i get thru this?

Today when i thought something would happen, the opposite just did.
Well, it's okay but down inside... that's a whole other story. It's not Chinese.
But i've promised far too many people not to screw up now that i just can't.

When i sat in the bus today, i thought of what i lost, what i never had....

Four years with you.
Standard one, no change.
Go out need 3 hours warning. Always come out same stunt. Always give me your fucked up 'Idk', 'Up to you?' answer. Know how much i want smack you not?!




What have we not done together, seriously?
Sharing our favourite chocolate chip ice blended from Starbucks...
Giggling over the white angels....
Craving for Hk Cafe.....
Hitting town for absolutely no reason.....
And once falling for the same guy. HAHAHA.

You're more than just another friend.
We've been thru so much, seeing each other at our best and worst or poorest times or when you zao geng ah!! Hehehehe.

You've been a great help and you made me say i luv you to my mom! -.-
You're always there with your fucking retarded ideas so i can laugh at you.
You always give me pleasant surprises, like last night, that made me happy cos now i'm happy for you. (Remember share the secret ah!!!)

And even thou half my mood was screwed in class today, i was still happy. Of course there's Clarissa that i now trust alot, Cheryl, Rach, Brenda..
You and i know we know each other best. Thank god i've you.
Oh and good luck with your new sis in law. HEHEHE.







Best friend foreverrrrrrr. XOXO.

Yesterday night was one of the most happiest moments of the week
because many took the effort to talk to me and
i appreciate it.
Like Kaijun's fishing on the moon and
thank you J for being such a great friend.

But if by tomorrow
and i'm still in this shit mode then
probably something is
very terribly horribly wrong with me
and
thats when you ought to know
i need a thousand and one hugs
and to tell me
everything's gonna be okay
though i don't think they will be.

Someone said i wasn't this 3 years ago. Then what am i now?
But you know what? I finished my homework today.

Today is going to be a stay home Saturday.......
My bestfriend and Rachel are out with Glenn and friends, i think so.
And i know Sher's not gonna be replying my texts so whatever la.

But i still feel like shit. Do you feel like shit too?
I am very not used to this. Very.
Stop it. Make it all stop it's gonna kill me sooner or later.
I meditate at home ogay? 24/7.
Gary just told me to study, what the fuck.

:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

I want you to know

it doesn't matter

cos i'm already gone

because

someone's gotta go.