I really must say, today was a real wake up call for me. I hope things will get better for you. I admit, its been long since i felt that way. You changed alot. Maybe to you, i dont matter anymore.

Today is fun manzxz. School. Mr Woon's not here. No amaths, YAYNESS. After school, roll to mac w/ the girls. I swear, i didnt expect what i saw & i should have known than to waste my tears on you. The most fun you can ever have is bitching with Michelle! :D Seriously, i love her to bits<3! We rolled to west coast! A last minute desicion:] Had great fun. Then roll home @ night.

Trg tmr. Die die need to hit 18min. I swear i will chiong like a looney ass.

Crippled by the love.

Hey yo manzxzxz. I dont like lessons. Lessons make my head go round, lol. Maybe excpet pe today. Because i chatted around with the girls. Reccess is always great:]! Ate with cliques, as usual. Collected ten cent. Talk to Strawberry, blabla. Then had to go back class to undergo more torture. End lessons @ 3.45 then roll over to cca. Yea then took bus and roll home. Why is my life forever so mundane!

Fuck siol. Lolzxz. Chiong Proposal like one mad dog.
I wanna go borrow books w/ Michelle and Shermaine sooooon!

Go on the road to the end of the sunshine
I wanna put this behind me. But the more i try to forget, the more i cant. Its certainly not easy for me to get to where i am now. I dont wanna go back to what i was.

I keep thinking, and thinking about you O: heh, i shouldnt!
When i thought i wouldnt be affected, i get pulled in so deep.

Today @ school is so ABCDEFGHIKJLMNOP -.-

Amaths, mind was not functioning properly :O Chem practical, was busy saving my hands from a flame and a burning splint. Phy was test. Didnt know about it! (Ok, maybe i did) Didnt study, so i dont expect much -.-Imagine measuring an angle with your fingers (LOL). Recess:D Ok i know i ps to collect ten cents, LOL :X CME! All about increasing value! But you cant expect me to like Yang Meh Meh right. LOL. That will be the last thing on my mind!

After school not much. Didnt eat w/ guys, so i rolled home with Melissa.
Heh:D

Reply tag:
Rollin: Hello:]!
SOKKEE: Haha hey! Meinu! Yea see you in school! Xoxo.
Jiawei: Yea:]
SHARON!:D: LOL! Got lor! Today hide behind me! xD
Michelle: Haha! Not that boring lah.
SHARON!:D: Its okay sweet! Haha, takecare love!
Vanessa: LOL! Yea:] Linked you up alr:]!
HanYun: Haha hey pretty! Takecare too! Loves.
ZhengYang: HAHA! Yea i agree ^^! Anyway dont always slack laas -.-! Go study:D
Shermaine: LOL! Try what sia! I dont want! *protects hair! xD!
Yiting: Hey! Linked:D
Mel: Meinu! Haha, xoxoxoxoxo!
Jiawei: LOL, i use her hair cook maggi mee give you eat ah!
ZhengYang: Haha i know who alr. LOL!
Sh:D: Hello:] LOL, lessons boring what xD
Jiawei: Yea i agree!
Dan.: Why! You are evil, dude!
SHARON!:D: Crazyarse:D! Takecare love. See you tmr!
WD; Yea! Still dare catch me sia :/
Shermaine: Haha! Yea go dye blue xD
Wrc!: Hello sotong:D Sotong dont angry alr okay? Takecare!

Yeap, thats all!
Haha!
*nono, cannot snatch my stead away, i will cry]':

Alright, seeing things like that makes me feel better.
Its about time. I'll get rid of you, once and for all.
I can if i think i can. HAHAHA.
Ugh, whatever.

Chiong for campcraft comp.
Chiong for proposal T_T

Walao, idk where stead go:[
I miss my stead alot manzxzx. Want go highlight hair tgt one ley!
Aiyahh. Kkbyebyegoodnight.

Turn it around. Im your heroine, your my hero.

Its Friday:]! (Means tmr will be a Saturday!)

School as usual. I didnt have time to spray my hair black. Had to meet the girls for the early bus. Compo test, wrote on heroes. No comments:/ I have to admit i cant catch up for maths alr(!!) I am so in love w/ history lessons:]! Decided to eat out before cca with cliques. Seriously, whats w/ the rubik's cube fetish? HAHA!

Oh another thing, KFC service @ Taman Jurong sucks reeeal big time. Even the Mister infront of us complained of the time she took to serve him. Eventually, the manager had to take over. Ohmy! What a turn off.

Trg was fun and is probably the fun-nest i had this year O: Why today Jun Kiat never go:[! Mixed around with sec1s:D I seem to hit off v well w/ Agnes:]! Jia Tong that audi pro! And Yanti's two other friends. I wanna go know all of them cos they just look so cute:] Oh and Weikang! HAHA, ex westgrovian too^^! I didnt get to build any basha today:/ Oh yea, and sometimes, i really do hope i can dig out some people's eyes -.- I bet im not the only one who thinks that way.

Hero / Heroine - Boys like girls
You caught me off guard, now im running and screaming.
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
Its too late, baby.
(!!)Im all over this song i tell you:D

I want to get myself out of this. I dont want history to repeat itself. But tell me how to when i see and hear things that remind me of you? I can sense somethings changing alr. Things are getting better, but not fast enough:[

Omg. Tmr will be a spam-hairspray day D:

Walao that bangla bitch, pray she dont find me in parade square lah _l_ CANNOT IMAGINE -.-

Heres something funny!
(9:11 PM) Shermaine ; As: That time my mother dye hair then i thought is hair mask so i take put on my hair thought is mask who knows after wash then know is dye, then if i now dye back black my hair will damage then must go do treatment, not good for my hair so now cannot dye back.
(9:11 PM) Shermaine ; As: Lol tell Rani that.
(9:12 PM) ♠, Selina.: You think she care?
(9:12 PM) ♠, Selina.: LOL.
(9:13 PM) Shermaine ; As: Lol i know her hair very maggi mee, actually i wanted to dye back then i scare my hair become like yours.
(9:13 PM) Shermaine ; As: See your maggi style hair, i got phobia.
(9:13 PM) ♠, Selina.: LOL.
(9:14 PM) Shermaine ; As: I beg you, please don't ask me to dye back if not my hair become maggi mee, i will cry ]:

Funny siol! Ok she's offline alr:[ So i'll be off to msg her.

Hell.

Shit you, Mdm Rani:/ Lipstick apply like free one, ohmy! Ya lah ya lah, dyed hair. You where not happy man -.- Gonna dye it black soon i think. Ive got my natural black hair growing out alr, so yeah.. O: Ugh, this alone is enough to ruin my mood.
Looked for Xinpei during recess. Had to go all the way to chem lab:/ Ok, Michelle finally got her number alr, haha! Must admit Xinpei's reeeeeally v cute:]! I love going crazy w/ Michelle!
Yea then Sharon's phone got confiscated during Hist(!!!!) Like whatthefuck. She alr done her work. She had nothing to do what. Hope her hp will be returned soon. Dont worry so much k, Sharon!

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how i feel

This time was different
Felt like, i was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

It's hurting me to let it go.

Back on track. Hopefully.
Weekend's been a great one. One missed call isn't that great @ all. O: School's hard to cope(!) Ugh, and i dont like it when CME periods are changed to amaths. all i can ever see is matices and MORE matrices. Wifey's back to school again. Good thing for her. Trgs on tues, thur, fri(?) Need to chiong proposal manzxxz.

Mac w/ stead.















Chem >:]



Town date.







I dont like what im going thru now. But doesnt seem that i have a choice. I admit i do regret. I regret every step i took right from the start. I know i can pick myself up again. Nevertheless, a part of me wants you back dearly. Everytime i walk past you, i could not help but to wonder why was it you. I lost everything.

Tag replies:
some1: No]: Idk who you are, lol!
Dan: Urgh, WHATEVER DUDE. Faint pls? :]
Mel: Blank's nice. LOL O:
Huiying: Hello! Haha! Yea see you!
SHARON!:D: Hey yo! Haha, xoxoxoxoxo.
Future Staff: LOL, yah lah ya lah!
Shaoying: Hey, cheer up too k.
Ji@W3i_sec 4: Yea i know:] Thanks:]
Kenn*: What? O:
Guest: Lol? Oh, ok thanks for tagging.
JuL ;: Haha, glad your back in school. Takecare ah.
Kenn*: Its ok. No need care about that:] Thanks!
Dan.: Walao style lah you! Still remember that incident, lol.
AQILAH:D: Relink asap! Haha, takecare babe.
Weiting: Hey yo! You too ah! Maybe just move on:]! Things will be better:]
SHAOYING: Yea i know what happened alr. No matter what, be strong.
Shermaine: Guess so O: Its hard. Really v hard. Stead is love. Xoxoxo.
SOPHIE!: Haha hey! Ey no lah, you then pretty siol! Takecare.
Wrc: Sotong ni hao^^ Link you alr. Takecare ah!
KEHUI: Ke nehneh! Haha, lets pray reeeeal hard? :]
Guest: ?? -.-!
FarahD; Yo babe! Haha, yea i dont even bother to listen!
SHARON!:D: Heyyyyyy. Haha. Takecare, and see you tmr:]
ZhengYang: Walao you? LOL. So many free periods manzx! *envies
Jiawei: o.o? What does that have to do w/ gay?
ZhengYang: Yah, suay right! LOL!
Jiawei: You dont even dare to pon and you say people -.-
Huiying: Meinu:]! No more dear alr O: See you too!
NIGEL: Hello Nigel! I love pressing your hair down:]
JuL ;: Got post alr. You post too.
Rolin: Thank you:] Happy belated birthday yea?
SHARON!:D: You too! Dont emo cos of fire O:
SOKKEE: Meinu! Haha, takecare babe.
SHAOYING: Updated deary!
Jiawei: Updated. Lol.
MICHELLE: Haha, pro-diaoer! Wanna see you diao more man! Loves!
ZT: Paikia:]! Update alr.
Bryan ;}: ROOSTER AH YOU. LOL. Linked!
Qiuling: Hey yo! Takecare pretty. See you tmr.

Its okay. Everything will be fine; soon. No, it not your fault. Please dont say sorry. You have your reasons too.

I'll still remember Dec 4th. I'll still remember the late night msges we had, when you told me to stop talking to soft toys, and you said you are cuter than my soft toy. And i kept calling you to go die! And you will call me baka! And sometimes will go go cold war, but you always gave in to me. I still remember all the songs that you sang too. Especially the Barney one. And the dont matter, you compose one. Last fri, i told you i wanted to eat ice cream, and you said you would treat me:] But guess its too late. Remember in audi, play club mg, and i made you lose? And got one night, we talked about wine, and you horny, lol!

And on xmas, i was so scared, cos i thought thats the end. Untill midnight, got your surprise and i was really happy. That night before i went to Thailand, i didnt tell you my last wish. I wished we didnt have to break on 25th. It did came true:]

I told you, i felt like a third party. So maybe, this is the best way out. Remember when you asked me about that guy? That was the past. Accepting him wont do any good. I wasnt sad cos of him. I really do hope you'll be with her somehow. I felt so guilty whenever i spoilt your mood. Everytime you told me to tell you things, but i just kept it to myself. I didnt know why too.

Everything is over now and everything will be left as memories. I will face it. I know its not easy to cheer up. But i will. Yes, there were feelings involved. But was i wrong? I really couldnt help it. Nothing would change the fact now. I just hope you will still be happy, that way, i will be happy too. Promise me you'll be happy.

Guess thats the last time im calling you dear.
Goodbye.

Whole week was lessons as expected.
I cant stand NgTeckWoon. With he teaching phy, i could go on sleeping and miss all his lessons:/ Yang Meh Meh's lessons totally have no links. Yes i admit, i realised how great OPH is as a teacher. Surprisingly, i enjoy humanities lessons v much:D! Pure hist and e geog w/ ss!:] I got a hunch i wont be doing well for maths this year. Means, i need Timothy help me, LOL.

Highlight of today was UG day? O: The bridge to the campfire totally freaked me out. Was shouting like a lunatic:/

I want this to last. I thought it could, but i guess i am wrong. From the first day, i knew this would happen. I tried to stop myself, but in the end, i dissapointed myself more than anyone. Self denial leads to greater sorrow. So why? I remember when you always told me to cheer up when i was upset. Yet, i wasnt there for you when you were down. I still remember all the songs we sang to each other. And how excited i got when i thought i got your reply. Just by telling me you still care, would be alr more than enough. We wont be tgt for long, further more forever, but i still treasured everything. I love you.
Reply tags:
Jiawei: All wrong then all wrong lah. Mr Woon doesnt seem to care? o.o
SHARON!:D: LOL. Dont worry, we havehw everyday to practice -.-
JuL ;: This type of thing, once in a blue moon ley! Dotzxzxzxz.
ZT: Aiyah, i only say you owe me money:]
Mel: See his face, you'll feel refreshed one!
Crystal: Will relink asap babe!
JuL ;: I guess i have to. Same goes to you. Xoxo.
Shermaine: Seems so hard to! LOL, yea your smart -.-
JuL ;: Omg? People never post is got reason one. So read for what. LOL.
!JANET :D!: Ey you were reeeally pretty:]! HAHA! Takcare k <3
Kenn*: LOL, i did stand BEHIND the white line! :]

Thats about it. I wanna catch one missed call with my gfs soon!

I dont know. Let me be dead. Let me disappear.
Let me go, dear. Go to her. She deserves your love more than i do. I miss you still so badly<3
It doesnt make sense. Im yours when im not yours.
Things are breaking apart. And it hurts to know what i am to you.
I want to hear your songs again. Yet, how do you keep the faith?
I said it before, im not a good gf @ all.
Let me go. Cos i realised i cant.
I want courage. I want courage to tell you so that i can free myself.

Thank you Timothy and (Teo) Jiawei and Juliana and Shermaine.

You know you've gone too far. And its too late to just turn back and let go.
Shermaine, Juliana. I promise you I will say it.

Nothing is gonna come out of us. Shermaine is right. I realised how much i relied on you for the one month. Time passes too fast. I need a break now. I swear i cherished every moment i could. Now just all left as memories. If i could, i'd rather not remember them. Maybe im thinking too much, maybe i expected too much. But i never regretted ever saying yes to you.

Something is not right.

Idk what is happening. A maths is such a bitch, urgh. I cant believe im actually doing homework now. What a joke. Sec3 is sian. Er thankyou Jiawei for bringing my books home?

And my leg pain like fuck lah bodoh. I might be dying reeeeeeeal soon:/

Tag reply.
STEPHANIE: o.o! Thanks.
SHARON!:D: I where got siol! O:
Angeline T.: Ya lah, fucking jealous. Damn you T_T
BenN: Boooooo! Go and die. You must promise me you'll be happy again.
JIAWEI: E/A maths. Yea laaas, he go pao meimei -.-
Shermaine: I neverr, lol. Yea online talking to you now:]
Derrick YGJ!: Yea, Yang meh meh _l_

Be happy please:[ Sighs. Im not happy too.

Im happy alr:]! (Yay)
LOL, happy 31 days, LOL.

I love Shaoying. And Juliana:D And Shermaine.
And some other people O:

Do cheer up wifey. Its just a matter of time before you find out. But everything will be fine k. Ive got your back too<3 Seems everyone's upset too. Kenneth, cheer up too.

Lessons. Boring like fuck _l_. I cant even do a simple piece of maths shit. Feeling like such a failure. I cant study MT with that China Yang teacher la walao. I feel happy whenever im with 2-2 o7<3
I wanna be usher tmr. Pls pls, let Shermaine (Lee) and I be ushers. Anyway Atiqah wanna get into fancy drill. Its a mutual swap. Today was a normal day.

I missed you. And im sorry :[[[[[[[[[[
&i kept thinking and thinking.
Sighs.

Such a wonderful day ey? (-.-)

Goddamn area cleanup _l_ Got timetable alr (OMG) and i realised how much i missed sec2 teachers. EA tmr O: WATCH ME DIE!

I love Miss Leong:[ I love OPH even though she is irritaing (LOL). I miss and love Mr Lee! Omg, why did he leave:[ Miss Leong cont teach me EL pls! Oph, i promise to listen during MT. LOL, Mr Lee, you teach maths, i confirm full marks, LOLZXZX.

Ey Mr Benjamin, today is third ok. Zzz. Its third of January 2008. TMR IS FOURTH. GETIT? 4th HOR. Zzzz. Ok nvm T_T

I saw you today:]

The damn pavement was blocked off:/





I saw my hot gfs:D Surprised to see little miss bangla♥ looking so cute today! ♥Qiuling and my ♥Juliana, chiozz chiozz alr leyzxxzx! All carrying our white bags, 5 of us (LOL). Angeline good lah hor. 3-4 Mr Low teach, high liaozxzxz.

After school, kfc with ♥2-2 people:D Met familiar faces along the way. Sihui, Shayna, Crystal and bro in law, hahahaha that asshole! Nigel and Melvin are learning the guitar, omgzxzxzxz how cool!

My pretty Shermaine♥






Wife suffers from severe brain damage:/




Crazy alr:/ I didnt dye my hair black. Sekaliii horzzzxxx tonight dream of Mr Nur. (HAHA) high alr. K nvm, tmr die -.- And Shanice and Kehui completed their MT hw alr. Left me, omgzxzxzxz. I miss 2-2 o7 so much:[

Shermaine: Yes i watched it w/ you:] You altering skirt length right. LOL.
Jiawei: o.o
KEHUI: Kiwi turned into tomato:[
Shermaine: Cant fix ley. OMG MAN:[
JuL ;: Go ♥ your *************. HAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHA >:]
Anthea: Hello:]! Haha, happy new year:] See you in school.
Jiawei: No its not new, LOL.
SHAOYING: Next time must come k. It was fun.
†RyushinZ*~: Hahahaa. I wont. I'll be happy:D Hamsters are stupid ley!
SHARON!:D: LOL. Yo classmate, LOL.
Crystal: Will relink:]
Stephanie: Hello:] Happy new year to you too:]
Saint: Happy new year:] Haha.
Kenn*: Papaaaaaaa:D Happy new year:]
Shaoying: Happy new year! <3
Angeline A. : Yo pretty:D
ZT: What laaaaazxzx PAIKIA. Will small meh! HAHA.

Maybe we're torn apart.
Maybe the timing is beating our hearts.
And we're empty.

Cant believe its 2008 alr! (OMG -.-) Uh, should look forward to the new year right:/ I cant find a reason to.

Out with my pretty xiaoooo min♥ Actually decided on buying nike shoes for school. HAHA. Shermaine was going crazyy over it lah! Bought some stuffs @ vivo before catching the movie. Sorta nice:D Saw some familiar faces there! Ok nvm, i was spending too much time looking on the ground! Beats getting disiao-ed. Whatever k.

Urgh, i cant believe i spent this year counting down new year with my dearest com:/ Supposed to attend the Boon Lay one with Xiang Qi, but didnt. Then thought of Vivo's one since Shermaine and i were there. Didnt go both in the end. Was pretty upset:[ DAN GOOD LAH, GO COUNTDOWN HOR. Think you tall i scared ah. HAHA. So w/ Chee How next yr? Today no luck, neverr see Sam, LOL. And my hp's still laggingggg like _l_ BOOOO:[ Shermaine! We'll go to build-a-bear again:D And get your m)phosis flipflops, HAHA.

Oh, sorry ah Benjamin:X

Is knowing everything better? But whats the use when you cant reverse the past. Idk what to do and idk what you are thinking.